GRADUATION MAKES ME MAD!

urghhhhh! i found the dress i want for grad!
AND I CAN'T FIND WHERE TO BUY IT ANYWHERE!
This is so frustrating! ARGHFHAJS;!

Carnival.

MEXIICCCCOOOOO IN LESS THAN EIGHT DAYS.
I'm soo pumped.
Get to be on a beach in Mexico with one of my bestfriends. (Claree <3)
Then i get to be on this lovely ship.

Tour de France.

I have an idea. It's actually really cute, i think.
Since I'm going to be moving out in less than a year i figured i'd have ideas for when i move out.
My first idea is about my yellow Tour de France jersey that my dad bought me in Paris, France.
He gave it to me for my fifteenth birthday. It was kind of a big deal. So my idea is not to be told to my dad until he comes and visits me in Van-city. Here's the plan: since I'm not going to wear a Tour de France jersey very much and i don't really want to ruin it, I'm going to frame it. And under the jersey I'm going to put a picture of my dad & me in our jerseys standing in the middle of Paris. I kind of want to put a little plaque under it saying something along the lines of " Paris, France Verano 2007"
I think it's a cute idea. It'll have to wait for a while though.
I think my dad will really like it when he comes to visit me and it's hanging on my wall somewhere in my house.

Kandee

New love:
- Kandee the Make-Up artist. She's fabulous.

$$$

Money i still owe my mother:
- $ 1650

Money Needed for TO Fashion week:
- $ 5000

Porsche's are pretty.

I came up with stuff i lovee today.
It's pretty sweet. Oh! and i came up with some lits and such that i should probably document just because i tend to be a blond secretly.

<3 :
- Venti vanilla berry blossom tea misto's from starbucks.
- Venti raspberry passion tea lemonade's from starbucks.
- Clare's Chevy Tahoe.
- Porsche's. (going to be my first car i swear!)
- Black peep-toe pumps.
- Toronto Fashion Week.
- Late curfews.
- VANCOUVER!

bunkk:
- Giving my mom all of my paycheck! (buh-bye eight-hundred dollars.)
- Still owing my mom seventeen-hundred dollars!
- Working my ass off at home and only getting fifty bucks off my debt.
- I CAN'T DRIVE BY MYSELF YET!
- The fact that TO fashion week is five grand!
- That i have no money for mexico.
- No new heels.

Oh man!

soo, i haven't had the computer in a while, my stupid internets been down, but it's fixed now.
=) mexico in like, less than two weeks.
Edmonton in three.
I no longer have a boyfriend. We ended it.

Creeper Vibe

Um, i think there's a vibe i give off. A vibe that attracts creepers! I honestly don't understand. I don't walk around in a short skirt and let my boobs fall out, so why do i get creepers that are always attracted to me. It's really terrible. I hate it. Or a guy i show remote interest in sometimes turn out to be creeps. Like, what the hell! I don't understand.
At all.
Gahh, creepers make me mad.

Graduation dress.

So, i was watching this old Fashion Television podacst on itunes, and then on a segment of Olivier Theyskens for Nina Ricci in the 2008 Spring Collection, a gold floor length gown pops up. I want it for my grad dress. It's gorgeous. Let me repeat that: GORGEOUS.
I want it.
Final answer. I can't find a picture f it yet. But i will.
Nina Ricci spring 2008 Collection. Gold dress worn by a brunette. I'm going to find it.

The Boyfriend

I think that i'm going to be someone that blogs a lot. But oh well.
So to kind of unwind. To say the least. I'm going to kind of spill everything that i think needs spilling.
Now, where to start. So, hm, i don't know.
I have a boyfriend of three months that i don't know what to do with. A dog named Piccolino ( meaning little boy in italian. ) I have an annoying pain in the butt sister. I have two almost divorced yet still together set of parents ( whom i love, don't get me wrong. ) I have friends that a million people would trade for. I have a house that's too small for my liking, but cozy all the same.
My boyfriend of three months name is eric. I can;t say i love him as much more than a friend. I lust for him right now. One major problem, he's super frigid. Like, a lot. I don't know. All of his friends tell me that he really likes me, buttt, somehow i don't see it. It doesn't feel like we're dating. It feels likes we're just friends, partially for our long-ish lasting relationship is that he's always busy. He does track, speed skating, and ten million other things in a day. He just came back from europe ( France & Italy ) because he was visiting his sister ( so amazing right? ) But somehow he won't do anything with me. He's always too busy. Or with his other friends. It makes me somewhat of a bitch. But i'm sorry, i can't help that.
I only wish that eric would get over what ever the fuck he needs to or else i'm going to break up with him.
That was my rant.
I might blog more after. Probably will. But chao for now.

Helena Christensen

soo, today was what i consider a bust. Not only was i stuck cleaning all day, i could've avoided it. I'm not happy that i missed the Sun & Salsa fest, but whateverrr now i guess. Kinda sucks.
One bonus. i was looking though my book on vogue covers and the November 1992 cover was really pretty. I was stolked.
The cover model was Helena Christensen. The best thing is, i actually like the cover, not like lot's of the 90's that seem weird to me, even though they were considered fashionable.

I'm thinking Mustang?

Soo, two very important things have come to mind.
one : I need to get my license. no joke.
two : i need to get a car. And not a shitty car, a nicer car. I'm not looking for a lambo, maybe like, a jeep or a mustang or something like that.
Oh, three things came to mind :
I need to move out. I'm looking at post secondary schools in europee, that's such a stretch though. Vancouver's already pushing it. A lot.
Whatever. In the end it's my choice. So i might move to vancouver, and then to London, or Milan, or New York or something like that.
Only time will tell =)

Vancouver, Toronto, Milan, NYC ?

My life may be seen as pretty simple and easy. 

That I'm the one that makes it hard. That it could be easy.

But this life is the only one i've ever known, i can't change how i've lived it now. I like my life so far. It's been pretty dece. Can't say it's been a breeze, i've had my up's and down's, but who hasn't. So whatever, i'm just a small-ish city girl hoping to make it in the big fashion industry. I know that i'll put my heart into it and that i'll work my ass off to get myself far in life. Because my father does not want me to go into fashion it only drives me that much further to succeed in life. 

I can't say that fashion was my first choice, nor will it be my last. And i know that it's not going to be an easy road and that i have to set myself apart from everyone else already. 

I'm trying. I'm trying to learn everything about fashion that i can. I'm trying to get my face out there in Canada, in Vancouer, in Toronto, in Montreal, in any place that i can.

I'm going to San Diego in like, 17days (with my best friend Clareee <3)>

I want to learn everything i can about Gucci, LV, Fendi, Hermes, Dior, and any other big name out there just to be able to have at least a little bit of a backround. 

Fashion is what drives me, the whole big scene, the glamour, the lifestyle is what i want to experience, coming from basically nothing to now, having at least a little bit makes me want to live the better life and a higher lifestyle. That may be shallow, and maybe i am shallow, i think i tend to be, but i don't want to admit it. I don't think anyone ever does. I don't know. All i know is that i'm going to make it far. I'm not going to be a washout, i'm going to be someone in this lifetime, i'm going to prove my father that i can make a career out of fashion. That's a promise. 

I WILL make it far, i will NOT quit. Ever. 

the first.

This is my first blog, and I'm kind of excited about it. 

This blog started because of a book, more specifically : A Year in High Heels by Camilla Morton.

Her book is really good. I'm going to try and read it and follow some of it (not the diets or the haute couture), but i will try reading the books, and maybe learning a bit more about the world outside this city.

To start my goals for right now are :

- finish high school strong. 

- get into John Casablancas Fashion School in Vancouver.

- get a job! ASAP.

- settle my home life and less fights with my parents.

- get $5000 for Toronto Fashion week in October and then another $3000 for the Fall/Winter Fashion week in TO.

Too bad my father does not approve of fashiiiooooonnn school.

Oh well. I don't care. =)

-xo. Tatiana.